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elysian chaos.
Великобритания
Добавлен 27 июн 2016
Hi, I'm Kirstyn! I'm 21 and I do this for fun.
Vidding is a special outlet for me, and if you watch my videos, you'll see that a lot of it is super personal content.
I've been doing this for about 5 years and I'm so lucky that I have this platform and reach, as I know so many of you are going through things you can relate to in the videos. I'm always here for anyone who wants to or needs to reach out, and I'm so glad that even a few of you can relate to my content.
Remember to always be kind to others, and yourself. You deserve it!
Vidding is a special outlet for me, and if you watch my videos, you'll see that a lot of it is super personal content.
I've been doing this for about 5 years and I'm so lucky that I have this platform and reach, as I know so many of you are going through things you can relate to in the videos. I'm always here for anyone who wants to or needs to reach out, and I'm so glad that even a few of you can relate to my content.
Remember to always be kind to others, and yourself. You deserve it!
if they loved you, darling you'd know [multifandom]
Hi guys! I'm back.
I've been awol for about a year now. My laptop broke and I finally got a new one for my 21st birthday! I wish this was better quality, but I'm trying to get back into the swing of this and gather new footage and software etc. so a little vidlet will have to do for now while I land back on my feet.
I hope everyone is staying safe and doing well.
This video is dedicated to everyone trying hard to let go of people who arent making it easy on them; I know the feeling all too well.
Hopefully I'll be back in full swing soon. :)
Love and (socially distanced) hugs to you all!!
*****
Song: July (Noah Cyrus Response)
Artist: Beth McCarthy
Fandoms: The Holiday; Shameless; Riverdale; The C...
I've been awol for about a year now. My laptop broke and I finally got a new one for my 21st birthday! I wish this was better quality, but I'm trying to get back into the swing of this and gather new footage and software etc. so a little vidlet will have to do for now while I land back on my feet.
I hope everyone is staying safe and doing well.
This video is dedicated to everyone trying hard to let go of people who arent making it easy on them; I know the feeling all too well.
Hopefully I'll be back in full swing soon. :)
Love and (socially distanced) hugs to you all!!
*****
Song: July (Noah Cyrus Response)
Artist: Beth McCarthy
Fandoms: The Holiday; Shameless; Riverdale; The C...
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"I can feel it happening [multifandom; anxiety]
Просмотров 179 тыс.4 года назад
Hi guys, it's been a while. We're currently on lockdown in the UK due to the Coronavirus pandemic. I know that a lot of my audience relates to my content about mental illness and such, and I just want to say that during this time of crisis, it will be difficult to keep on top of our mental health, but we have to stay strong. I know that I'm already finding myself struggling with my anxiety and ...
gert & chase | you were good to me [+season 3]
Просмотров 15 тыс.4 года назад
I am devastated that Marvel's Runaways has been cancelled! I've loved the show since it came out and honestly, it deserved better. Gert and Chase will forever have my whole heart! fandom: marvel's runaways song: you were good to me by: jeremy zucker & chelsea cutler #gertandchase #marvelsrunaways #fanvidfeed #vidder
bellamy & clarke | get you alone
Просмотров 9354 года назад
Not my best work but I'm finally starting to get back into editing. Bellamy and Clarke will forever have my heart, but I'm really starting to doubt them getting together before the show ends:( Aaaanyway,, enjoy! Song: Jessie Ware - Alone Fandom: The 100 #The100 #Fanvidfeed #Viddingisart #Bellarke
look after you | bellamy&clarke [+6x10]
Просмотров 2,1 тыс.5 лет назад
I apologize for the teeeeeerrrible editing that has occurred, but OMFG! This week's episode was insane! Fandom: The 100 Couple: Bellamy&Clarke/Bellarke Song: Look After You By: Aron Wright #The100 #Bellarke #FanvidFeed #ViddingIsArt
"I'll only hurt you if you let me..." [multifandom]
Просмотров 8 тыс.5 лет назад
"perpetually trapped between being unloved and unlovable, and pushing away and hurting those that care about me" - a novel by me. Seriously though, this video is a crazy mashup of clips I identify with between being rejected and left behind to having no romantic feelings and being too messed up to feel love to pushing anyone I start to feel anything for and sabotaging any potential happiness. I...
I'd love to leave you alone, but I can't let you go [dads&daughters]
Просмотров 56 тыс.5 лет назад
So much of these are things I wish I could say to my dad. I wish I could tell him what he'll miss out on. I wish I could tell him I know that none of the shit he put me through is my fault. I wish I could tell him that I'll be 100x better at being a parent than he was. And that sounds as if he's dead, he's not. He's just out of my life because I got tired of the drama and the bullshit, and the ...
let you love me - tandy&karolina&lauren
Просмотров 1,1 тыс.5 лет назад
3 of Marvel's bomb-ass blondes, that is all. Fandoms: Marvel's Cloak & Dagger, Marvel's Runaways, Marvel's The Gifted. Characters: Tandy Bowen, Karolina Dean, Lauren Strucker. Song: Let You Love Me By: Rita Ora Thanks for watching! #Multifemales #Vidmas #FanvidFeed #Marvel
My Christmas Wishlist 2018
Просмотров 1005 лет назад
My Christmas Wishlist In all honesty, I will be so grateful for anything anyone has to offer. 1. I would really love a new channel icon, preferably in keeping with the very loose theme of my channel. Bonus points if it has a one of my favourite characters/actors in it, ie. Raven Reyes/Lindsey Morgan, Jane Doe/Jaimie Alexander, Lydia Martin/Holland Roden, Fiona Gallagher/Emmy Rossum or Daisy Joh...
Multicouples | Beautifully Unfinished
Просмотров 1,6 тыс.5 лет назад
HD Full Screen I've been stuck for inspiration lately because I've been so physically and mentally exhausted, but I'm going to try and upload more. I'm rather proud of this one, because my editing has come so far! Thanks for watching! Couples: Matt&Gabby;Nora&Ian;Cole&Maddie;Ruby&Liam;Ross&Rachel;Bellamy&Clarke;Rebekah&Marcel;Scott&Allison;Wyatt&Lucy;Liam&Hayden;Erin&Jay;Penelope&Max;Brandon&Callie;Alex&Maggie;Liza&Josh;Luke&Willa. Fandoms: Chicago Fire;Valor;Fuck the Prom;The Darke...
Raven & Zeke | "half of you's not enough for me."
Просмотров 5845 лет назад
Two videos in two days? Who am I? Anyhow, I'm feeling antsy this hiatus, so I'm expressing it through Zaven and other vids. It feels like they were really rushed, but Raven deserves so much happiness and Shaw is so good, so I'm here for it. Pairing: Raven Reyes & Miles Ezekiel "Zeke" Shaw Fandom: The 100 Song: Mutual By: Shawn Mendes #the100 #zaven #fanvidfeed
Multifemales | Inner Demons
Просмотров 5 тыс.5 лет назад
Apparently all I can make are sad multifemale videos so enjoy. Characters: Rosita Espinosa;Lydia Martin;Iris West;Callie Adams-Foster;Lauren Tanner;Lux Cassidy;Caroline Forbes;Octavia Blake;Mary Stewart;Alex Danvers;Clarke Griffin;Maggie Greene;Hannah Baker;Laurel Lance;Jules Thomas;Allison Argent;Peyton Sawyer;Molly Hernandez;Kara Sounders;Raven Reyes;Daisy Johnson;Alicia Clark;Maya Hart;Emma ...
multifemales | "drowning in words so sweet"
Просмотров 6 тыс.5 лет назад
I was stuck for inspiration so this is quite a soft little vid, full of recycled footage, but there are quite a few new clips in here. This is quite personal, as I resonate with a lot of the voiceovers and characters. Thanks for watching! Characters: Alicia Clark;Raven Reyes;Chloe King;Lucy Preston;Jessica "Chilli" Chilton;Alexis Glenn;Nadia DeCotis;Maddie Graham;Lara Jean Covey;Hannah Baker;Pe...
Multicouples | "are you happy now?"
Просмотров 2,6 тыс.5 лет назад
Honestly, this was just supposed to be a few couples but here it is? #multicouples #multifandom #fanvidfeed #otps Couples: Bellamy&Clarke, Wyatt&Lucy, Beth&Daryl, Kurt&Jane, Magnus&Alec, Noah&Elle, Jake&Amy, Scott&Allison, Kara&MonEl, Deke&Daisy, Gabby&Peter, Jay&Erin, Simon&Bram, Charlie&Katie, Amy&Karma, Carrie&Sebastian, Hazel&Gus, Natalie&Will. Fandoms: The 100, Timeless, The Walking Dead, ...
bellamy & clarke | guess I'm such a fucking fool [+5x12]
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bellamy & clarke | guess I'm such a fucking fool [ 5x12]
Peter Mills | young blood [chicago fire]
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Peter Mills | young blood [chicago fire]
multicrossover | "all that I needed was the queen of my heart..."
Просмотров 6176 лет назад
multicrossover | "all that I needed was the queen of my heart..."
multifandom | down to the second [cancer]
Просмотров 47 тыс.6 лет назад
multifandom | down to the second [cancer]
multifandom | "you have a great life..." [mental illness]
Просмотров 118 тыс.6 лет назад
multifandom | "you have a great life..." [mental illness]
Bellamy & Clarke | "I belong to you and surely that's enough." [+5x05]
Просмотров 8 тыс.6 лет назад
Bellamy & Clarke | "I belong to you and surely that's enough." [ 5x05]
you said you'd grow old with me [sad multicouples]
Просмотров 7 тыс.6 лет назад
you said you'd grow old with me [sad multicouples]
Miller & Jackson | If you love me let me know [5x02]
Просмотров 44 тыс.6 лет назад
Miller & Jackson | If you love me let me know [5x02]
escape it all; it's just irrelevant [depression]
Просмотров 52 тыс.6 лет назад
escape it all; it's just irrelevant [depression]
●be the best weirdo you can be [self-worth]
Просмотров 1,7 тыс.6 лет назад
●be the best weirdo you can be [self-worth]
stephen&lauren | you got my heart, I don't want it back [crossover]
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stephen&lauren | you got my heart, I don't want it back [crossover]
I’m not surprised Chase is here. When we first meet him in the comics, his dad punches him in the face
Are you ok man?
I used struggle with depression and self harm i was so tired of feeling worthless faking smiles and death was happening around me 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢
every woman has that moment, where something happen, and nobody believes her, and it happens to guys too, no means no, and druging gurls and guys drinks too needs to stop, and rape in establsih relationships needs to stop
0:20 what is the title ? Plaese
How my parents are
Thank you for your words of care and encouragement. #metoo
What song is this
wow ! 😿
Rather'd be a beast than a man you'd be proud of
1:23 1:25 which show
this entire video is a perfect representation of my ex adoptive parents
Yes... The clips of FTWD here are prove that Madison really neglected Alicia and Nick at some point...
It's really screwed up when a child dies before their parents. Kids should play outside all day without having to fight for their lives.
Sometimes when I'm really upset and missing my mom(whom I lost to cancer 6 years ago) I say out loud that it should have been me
The pain of having both mommy and daddy issues.......
I wanted to share my story... So my mum actually loves me a lot. But she had never let me hang out with my friends. She always gives excuse what will she tell to my dad if something happened to me. Now i am a college student. I hang out with my friends sometimes but she doesn't like that. Some of my friends wanted to go on a tour so they invited me. My mum said no and we had an argument. She always says that you dad have been spending a lot of money on you. You should be more sensible. He provides you everything before you ask for them. I never did something that brought shame to them. My grades were always great. I did everything to make tjem proud. I mean i never wanted a macbook, phone or etc. I just want to enjoy my life...
I've been having them ever since my mom died 15 years ago. They were gone for a while but have returned in earned in the past few weeks. I also have severe depression and PTSD. I've had it for so long now I feel like I am truly crazy. I've destroyed romantic relationships and my career. I've been on meds but I didn't get treated in time to save what I really need in my life: a partner and to build my own family I truly cannot take this anymore. I cannot. I can't keep sticking around
0:15 can someone tell me the name plz
I always pretend she was Merle and daryl sister
0:14 does anyone know what show it is???
When I point out their abusive behaviour I'm always met with "Atleast I didn't throw you out the house/ there's worse parents out there/it's your fault/ well you..."When I finally can leave, if I make it out, I will never ever look back.
I used to suffer anxiety attacks!
It’s been 8 days since my trial. Once again I’m an orphan
You went to bed with a smile on your face. While I went to bed wondering if my parents would wake up drunk in the morning.
I’d love to believe that I won’t be anything like my mom but I see anger in me and I hate it but at least I apologize to people my mom thinks what she does is “funny” or “quirky” like “haha I take my anger out on you I’m just quirky like that”
What serie sabrina carpenter is in
1:24??
can I get the drama names??
im so glad you added maddison clark cause ibe always hated her and everyone loves her
Does anyone know the name of the movie or series? minute 0:23
The axe forgets but the tree remembers. Parents forget what they said and the hurt they’ve caused, but we remember. We hold it inside where we will NEVER forget.
It turns life into a game. A game with strict rules and dire consequences. A game that only you are playing. You have to stay quiet, so you don’t say something weird. You have to look acceptable. Not good, not bad. Just acceptable, so you don’t stick out. The rules can get so absurd that they don’t even make sense to you. No wearing white; you could spill something on your shirt and get embarrassed. No colorful socks. Especially if they don’t match your shirt. Always wake up at 7:00 and do at least five chores a day. Being lazy is unacceptable. You can’t tell anyone you’re playing the game. It’s just you and these restricting, excessive, unavoidable rules. Forever.
Me too going through it happened six months ago feeling down
You know what's kinda funny is No one who knows you See's your suffering and that no matter how many times you try to tell them no matter how many cuts you make drugs you take they refuse to see it. No matter what they will refuse to see you suffering they choose to see the little kid who would play and smile and say I love you they refuse to see the person who you are now someone who is so busy fighting something they can never win someone who just wants to die. Beautiful edit though.
I feel really bad for these people they struggle so much with anxiety.
jesus talk of needy
01:36? please
What are the names of all these movies and shows
Sexual assault can really affect girls it can lead to suicide they must tell people when they are ready.
One day at a time is a great show!
Yes!
"why didnt you tell us in the first place?" heard that ALL THE TIME. no matter how much i explain they wont get it
You can say something when and if you want to, you decide the time and the person. You don't have to talk to somebody if you need time to be able to talk about it to somebody. You take your time and when and if you want, you talk. The importance in all of this is you. You matter. Your feelings and you feeling ok matter.
hi everyone i would like to say I am so sorry to anyone who has been r*ped or SA'ed. i can't even begin to imagine what y'all have had to go through. just know if you ever need someone to talk to i am here. have a good day :)
My dad loves for everyone he don't love me he try to kill me
When she said she wants to make amends to any woman who was hurt because she didn't say anything I felt that. I was sexually abused by a classmate in 5th grade, and when I worked up the courage to tell my friend, he said that he had been assaulted by the same classmate. Every day I feel like if I had said something then my friend wouldn't have to deal with what he now has to deal with. I know it's not my fault but I still feel incredibly guilty.
I didn’t report it because we both we drunk, and I felt ashamed and stupid for putting myself in that situation. #metoo
0:55 title?
Teen wolf
I never knew my parents were so neglecting until I was searching up how it feels when your mom or dad isn’t there during childhood, which was supposed to be for a assignment . I ended up turning in the assignment about my own parents. Course, I didn’t make obvious.
STILIES said it all for me! I don’t know what the hells wrong with me! I see me when he says that.
Movie / show at 1:43?